Last Day of 2013, 06.

I'll be spending the night at work, which is just as good as anything else, I suppose. I spend 99.9% of my time at work anyway, so why not another NYE? But I'll bring in the actual midnight time with my sister at home, so that part won't be at work, just everything else leading up to it.

I spent Christmas day in the hospital, so let's hope this holiday is better.  Luckily for me, my caffeine headaches happened while I was suffering my food poisoning from work, so they weren't nearly as noticeable.

Nothing really to talk about on here at the moment, I'm sure the new year will bring interesting things.  Hopefully nothing but good ones.

The 2014 List, 04.

• Go see a movie at least once a month
• Blog weekly on this place
• Get a nose ring (remember: larger stud)
• Learn how to drive
• Start figuring out HR classes (&job shadowing with Deb)
• Buy a new TV
• Buy a new laptop
• Get new clothes!
• Get the cats spayed (Appointment on February 17th)
• Lose weight
• Get new glasses
• Dental work
• Start the envelope for saving $$
• Get rid of the caffeine addiction

edit february 8, '14: the striked out things are on my list of accomplished so far this year!

In Preparation of 2014, 03.

The new year will be here far too quickly. I'm not even sure where 2013 went, let alone the last 3, 5, 10 years.  It's been a blur of too much, not enough, and just living.  It needs to have some sort of middle medium, but I'm not sure how to get to that. It's a slow process of growing as a person.  With work, with friends, with family.  It's all connected to who I am as a person. I am trying to figure out who I am.  I thought I knew, but the more things happen, the less I really realize about myself. I don't even know how to begin to define me. My life has involved the internet since I was 15 years old. I will be 32 in 6 months (how that's possible, I'll never know) and I can't even tell you what my hobbies are.

If you'd asked me that question when I was 15, it would have been an easy answer: webdesign, reading, and writing. I wanted to go into webdesign and/or become a writer, so making fansites and fanfic was all I did in my spare time.  I wouldn't mind getting into webdesign again, but it's so much more complex now.  Who cares about flash (of the non-Barry Allen sort) and php and all those image mapped layouts. I certainly don't. I didn't when it was becoming the fad, nor do I care now, 10 years later.

Now, I haven't HTMLed in years, outside of copy/paste tumblr coding, or italicing words in 500 words or less drabbles. I don't write enough.  I don't write at all anymore. I miss it, but I don't have time for it, not the time a writer should be able to devote to fine-tuning their craft. I might tinker with Arrow fanfic, because ever since Grant Gustin graced our screens as Barry Allen aka The Flash, I haven't been this obsessed in, like, ever.  But even just time to fanfic seems impossible right now.

So with these thoughts, I want to make a list.  A list of things I want to accomplish, things I want to start to learn, things I'd like to brush up on and relearn. I'd like to make an actual life online again.  I want to make a real life finally, too.  I want to make friends, do things, go out, meet someone.  Do all the things I should've been doing doing the last ten years of my life.

As our Raggedy Man regenerates on Christmas day, maybe it's time I do the same thing in real life, too.